Good Morning! Happy Wednesday! Today would normally be Wedding Talk Wednesday, however I haven’t posted in a week so I want to talk a little bit about why and what has been going on. First, and for most, I want to apologize for my lack of posting. This week break really made me realize how much I love and care about blogging. I haven’t been commenting or reading blogs as much either and I miss it. It really has become such a part of my life that I am not willing to give up no matter what.
I’m going to make an attempt to explain briefly why I haven’t posted but I am not going to completely get into all of the details and you will understand why when I explain. Last Wednesday, I thought I was going to have a normal day at work. However, that was the day that my life had changed. That is when I had to learn to become more cautious, and take notice of my surroundings. When I was required to be escorted when coming into work and leaving work. I have had some issues at work in relation to my security when I am there.
Again, I don’t want to go into too much detail because I am hoping this individual does not read my blog but you are never 100% sure. Someone showed up at my work, that I have absolutely no clue who this individual is trying to see me. He made up lies that we had spoken before and even proceeded to pull a rose out of his jacket. I have no idea who this person is. I don’t know how they found out information about me. It is VERY scary. The only reason that I know what this person looks like is because I was given pictures.
My life is not the same now. I feel as though people look at me differently at work even though I had nothing to do with anything. I want this person caught for what they are doing to me. I require security around me at all times when I am work. It’s really frightening. The only time I truly feel safe is when I am with my family or friends away from work. I am hoping this person realizes what they are doing and either stops or gets caught. Enough is enough already.
I haven’t blogged because truthfully I was afraid to. This blog is a huge part of my life and I am not going to stop just because of one sick individual. I have given this an awful lot of thought and I have decided I am moving forward with my blog. I am not going to give up something that I have worked so hard for. The friendships that I have made, and my loyal readers who read my blog everyday. I will not give that up.
So despite all of this, I am still in a lot of pain with my stomach. On Monday, I saw a new GI doctor. This doctor is extremely book smart! She knew exactly what she was talking about. She was the first doctor to discuss the nodule that was found on my colon. Apparently, I have some kind of infection in my colon. That is the first part of what is going on. The second part is that she thinks that I could have Crohn’s Disease or Inflammatory Bowl Disease. The only true way to diagnose these and see actually what is going on with my colon is through a colonoscopy. I am scheduled for one this Friday. I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t scared out of my mind. I am hopeful though that they will finally find out what is going on with me.
One month ago, I was rushed to the emergency room and had my appendix removed and my stomach has never been the same. So I deserve answers and the help I need to get well. I am just hoping they can figure out what is going on. It’s hard to live in constant pain.
In other news, I’ve been trying to have more dairy-free options to see if that would help with my stomach. The lovely company, Earth Balance sent me some free coupons to try out their products. I have always wanted to try their products but they are just way too expensive for me to purchase on my own. I was so excited at the options that I could try not requiring me to take my lactaid pills!
I picked out two products to try. They were the sticks of “butter” and the tub of whipped “butter.”